A month from right now, I will be starting my day in Uganda. It won't be my first day, but it will be one of my first days there.
I'm starting to freak out. What am I doing?!?! As people keep asking me, "what will you be doing?" I used to have fun answering "I don't know" but now I'm starting to get nervous about this answer. This is really happening! I'm about to leave for 2 months in Uganda. What was once a lifelong dream is now a reality. Part of me says "2 months is short" the other part of me says "2 months is a lifetime." I can't believe it's almost here.
This summer came and went. This weekend is the Hood to Coast, which was supposed to be my "goodbye to Summer!" I'm not ready to say goodbye yet! My life is awesome! My summer has been amazing, and has encouraged me in ways I would have never believed. Why am I leaving when life is really good? Why the shake up now? Why not the shake up when things are down, and I need new life? What is God doing?
I just don't know!
But, I do know that God has been preparing me for this trip for a long time. God has paved the way, and I know that without a doubt. So, why am I so nervous?
I find it so easy to trust God in every aspect of my life, but for some reason right now, I am having a hard time trusting God. It's almost like things are too good in my life, and I have this fear that they are going to fall apart if I'm not here to enjoy these moments of bliss. But that's not the case, and I know it! Deep down, I know this! I know that God has called me to this journey! I know that God placed it on my heart to return to Africa someday, and that this day is coming soon! I know that God put all of this together, and put me in the right place at the right time to meet Cindy and be able to work with Village of Hope.
I don't know why I'm freaking out tonight. I don't know if it's because I realize that everything is coming so soon, if it's the ending of the summer, or what, but for some reason tonight everything is getting to me.
So, if you can, keep me in your prayers.
I know that it is going to be great! I have plenty of time to prepare, and to wrap things up here. God is going to take care of me while I am there, and is going to take care of things here while I am gone. I just need to trust God.
God is good! All the time! All the time, God is good!
Reminders from my roommate tonight as I talked with her about this:
Things fell into place for me to go
My church is really supporting me
The money and support came in
My church is allowing me to leave for 2 months
I was able to raise money to go, people donated for garage sales, friends put together huge fundraisers, people from all different areas of my life sent in donations, and it just keeps coming!
The idea came to me while I was in church (Zumba nonetheless)
